Two Poems
45 Oak
after Emily Dix Thomas
My new apartment’s quiet
without your cello looping
off the coast. It was a wave,
of course. Hi to the cherry tree
briefly in bloom. Hi to our revolving
third roommate, cursed as a fat cat’s
shit on the floor, fermenting
leftovers in the fridge, an ex
more than once. LESBIAN BED DEATH
koozies. CRY EVERYWHERE t-shirts.
Cuzn, I’ve been thinking.
Family is just commitment
to the bit, and there’s light late
in the afternoon. Paisley velvet
couch, springs busted, us reading
the same novel on the same day.
Roasting marshmallows over the flame
of a many-wicked candle. Splitting that half-gallon
of mint-chip with the tiniest spoons.
House motto: Everything on a bed of greens.
New Year’s resolution: more butter.
I put on your record
whenever I miss you. I drop frozen
berries in mocktails and take long walks
on Arthur’s moon. Each step
moves me. I can still recall
the feeling of the fall, sudden
and steady, the air thin
as strings plucked again
and again, the stars constellated
meaninglessly, the two of us
applying lipstick in the mirror
better than whatever came next.
Superlatives at 30
Scratch churchliest, stash jiggliest.
I’m campaigning for friendliest now
that I outgrew my alien aptitude for small talk
and predisposition to place liens on personal
library loans. O erstwhile cavalier
heart! Holier-than-thou and reluctant to pop
wheelies for just anyone. How unevenly
I julienned my warmth. How thoroughly
I misbelieved in scarcity, underestimated who deserves
my ebullience and how much I have
to plier out. There’s no need to be that petty
little clique lieutenant. Not when
butterflies land indiscriminately. Not when I have
too often relied on strange kindnesses.